So apparently my sister has been reading my blogs on xanga. which is funny because i've done the same thing with her myspace blogs. but she just posted this

shit 3rd blog of the day

yeah, i try to keep it down to one a day, but today has felt like it's lasted a week so i figure it's okay to abuse myspace power. and because i'm tired and cranky and people are still here.

but the point is this: SONIA IS A HARDCORE FUCKING BITCH. okay, so every other time i post about her it's not to be flat out mean, but she has pushed it tonight. she is just so mean and malicious. like, she doesn't feel bad at all when she hurts someone else's feelings, which is just abnormal, like serial killer abnormal.

and sonia, if your own mother tells you your acting like a bitch, a word she uses once every ten years, then you should realize that yes sweetie, you are one. k? fix your ways, you're just cruel.

and grace? okay yeah, she was your friend first, i'm sorry she likes me better, well no i'm not that sorry. don't go around posting mean ass blogs about how you try to hurt ruth and grace's feelings cause they don't give a shit, k? no one's feelings got hurt that day but yours, cause you're oversensitive and waaaay too dramatic. who's going to marry you, i don't know. i pity the fool, whoever he may be.

and you have this sick condition where no matter what happens, you always make yourself out to be this poor little abused girl, aw boo hoo everyone beats up on the baby of the family, sob sob, my parents like my older sister sooo much better. aw shut the hell up it's because in comparison to you, everyone looks better.

and also, okay, i took grace, but you didn't seem to feel bad when you completly wrecked a good friendship of mine by saying yes to the fucker. cause when i tell people that story, and i tell it a lot, everyone is always surprised not by the fact that he asked you out but because you said yes. you didn't seem to care about that now did you.

my art show? you only showed up to ask for cash. this better not beccome a trend cause you already owe me $80, whore.

MAN. there is nooo way our sisterly bond will strengthen when i leave for college, i don't care WHAT you say. cause as much as you might have hated your older sibling, i hate sonia ten times more. i just don't like her. at all. so i really wouldn't care if i lost all contact with her when i left.

too bad you won't read this bitch cause i blocked you on myspace HAHAHAHA LOOK HOW LOW YOU'VE FORCED ME TO GO CAUSE NOW I'M POSTING REVENGE BLOGS ON MYSPACE.

this will be deleted quick so read up now before it's gone.

i hate her.

Currently Listening The Rocky Horror Show: Original Roxy Cast (1974 Los Angeles Cast) By Richard O'Brien Sweet Transvestite see related

current mood: tired and annoyed 

Well this week has been hell. Let's face it. I DON'T DO WELL UNDER STRESS. And this week was a big stinking pile of COTTON CANDY. A big sticky MESS. Ugh. I hate my stomach. I had issues this week and  I do'nt know why but my mother is complaining about taking me to the doctor which makes me so angry. I mean, WHAT KIND OF MOTHER DOESN'T WANT TO TAKE THEIR KID TO THE DOCTOR?~? Oh yeah, the kind of mom who beats her kids and calls them bitches. OH WHOA!

Anyway, despite my "illness" or whatever the hell you want to call it, I went to Fat City with some folks. Louis, Alana, Paul, Jenny and Matt to be exact. It was really fun. We went bowling. The first game I BOMBED. I came in last. And Paul was 2nd to last. Then the next game, we had teams. Of course Paul and I teamed up and it was really funny because we TOTALLY KICKED ASS!! I was really excited because for a time I was in 1st (which is soooo funny) But Paul can do this weird curve thing with the ball and we won. He was 1st and I was second.. so we won. OBVIOUSLY. hahah. Well.. I wasn't actually 2nd. I was third.. but for the fucking MAJORITY of the game I was second. Then Louis totally.. anyway. Some guys gave us mardi gras beads. Oh man. Older guyssssssss mmm. We also played lazer tag.

We (my Indian parents) are having a party. I mentioned them being INDIAN because only INDIANS are coming. Ugh. I need to shower. I refused to help my mom clean up the house because she called me a bitch. Well she said i was ACTING like a bitch. A bitch none the less. Now I feel bad.. But she also complained about taking me to the fucking doctor. I hate her... Anyway, Indian parents WILL bring their Indian kids. Meaning I will have to babysit. Bloody hell.

Currently Listening Frankenstein Girls Will Seem Strangely Sexy By Mindless Self Indulgence see related

current mood: pissed off/hurt

So, its funny how things turn out.

I come home to find my computer missing. I ask my mother where it is. She says she doesn't know. So I knock on my sister's door and ask if she knows where it is. She has it... obviously. So I  ask ("demand" in the words of my mother) for it back. Blah blah, I don't really remember what else happens but I was being rude (I hate that bitch anyway. And Grace and Ruth were over so it made thinkg 100,000 times worse) And so she says, "My friends are still over, so stop being a brat". I go on to say that I don't care and that she acts the same way when my friends are over. Then she says something like, no I don't. Or something. And I leave.

I hate Grace so much. Honestly. She totally... ugh. I feel like crying thinking about it. I'm actually tearing up. But the thing with Grace is she TOTALLY chose my sister over me. We used to be pretty good friends and then my sister comes along and now she and Grace are suddently best fucking friends. And it makes me so angry because its pretty impossible to be friends with both of us. Especially if your best friends with one.

Oh and apparently my sister has "issues" with me, so I have to go talk to her psychiatrist in like a week. Hahaha. It's SO FUCKING FUNNY how things turn out.

Currently Listening Americana [ECD] By The Offspring see related

current mood: pretty content

So this week... has been the week from hell. I failed a chemisty test, I failed a math test (and I failed a racketball test, hahah) and I was sick. I also had an AP test... but I'm not too sure how I did on that. And to top it all off, I wasn't feel well. At. All. And now, I'm missing Coffee Haus, and I really wanted to go.. because.. well.. a certain someone was playing there. *cough* haha. Oh man, its so ridiculous. I am so ridiculous. I need to get over these little "school girl crushes" as Reade calls them. pah. I can't go because my sister isn't goint and like my mother would want to drive me there.

Anyway, I had a.. weird dream last night. It was so weird. I think.. I think the place I was at got flooded.. and I lost EVERYTHING. Like Katrina, only I don't think as many people were affected. And for some reason I was with Louis.. And.. well it's kinda hard to explain via xanga.. but I started crying and he gave me a hug and everything was all right... ugh. I am so confused. I mean.. there are so many other aspects to this that I can't explain and don't understand. But anyway, we started playing like.. super mario bros. or something. And I was this weird.. ball character. But thats so beisdes the point of my dream. I'm trying to figure it out but there are so many other things that contribute to this and its way out of my control.
Everyone is hooking up at my school and I feel like I've been left behind. Like on some deserted island where I don't even get to say who I'd like to be with.

Anyway, I started playing guitar again. Last weekend.. I dont know if I blogged about it but I'll say it anyway, my father took me to get my guitar restrung and a new phone (my old one broke). But anyway, it feels pretty fantastic to be able to play again. Like.. completely... ah. I don't know, can't really explain it. Last night I learned The Hunger by the Distillers and part of the intro of Stairway to Heaven and Under the Bridge. It's pretty fantastic. The only thing that is starting to bug me is the fact that since my fingers are so small, I can't play some of the chords. Anyway.. I am off. Gonna go play!

Actually it's really funny because my computer just started playing Americana, by the Offspring and that's what I named my guitar after! My baby's name is Americana

Currently Listening Swagger By Flogging Molly see related

current mood: bleh

So this has to be a quickie because I have tons of hw to do.

But first let me say, I think I'm lactosentolerent... or however the hell you spell it.

Secondly, the musical is going to be FABULOUS. All the anger I had before about not getting a good part is pretty much GONE.

Third, my dad almost made me cry. We spent time together this weekend and he was like, "I'm really going to miss you and your sister when you're gone. That's only in two years you know". That almost made me cry.

Last, the Olympics make me really sad. I just saw this Asian girl fall down while ice skating with her parter. But she got right back up and finished their performance even though she was injured. The newscasters or w.e were saying that they might have a chance to get a medal and I was like on the verge of tears. I mean.. imagine working your entire life to get somewhere (say, the Olympics) and the just.... making one little mistake that could change the rest of your life. Luckily, the asian skaters got the silver medal and made me really happy, but like what about the other Olympians who worked so hard to get there and just loose by like .0001 of a second while like.. skiing or something. I mean.. wow. That would suck so much. But I guess thats just life eh?

I've been so emo lately, hahaha

OH! and I totally got Liz and I Flogging Molly tickets!!!!!!!